Oh, lol, I remember back in the days when anons came crashing down, wishing that I would get a no on my evaluation, I don’t know where the fuck they came from, but seriously, that’s kind of funny.
I’m going for a second opinion because this is truly bullshit.
As I said, I have no words for how they have written about me and treated me. Why does my appearence with my hairstyle, colour of my clothes, or piercings have to do with my wish to change my gender?
What the fuck does that have to do with my psychological status (that always came along after the description of how I looked)?!
tropicalsense asked: what are the relations between law/legal order and anarchism?
darkgreythoughts said: I’m so sorry this is happening dear :( I really hope things start to improve. I’m always here if you need or want to talk or blow off steam.
Thank you so much dear <3 (I have your letter in my inbox for safekeep so you know)
voodoom said: WHAT?! You should take this to the media or something this is horrible. “Act like a man” Excuse me?! How does acting like a man have anything to do with how you identify yourself and how you feel?!? Wow
I’ve had a few suggestions on going to the media, and i’ve had a thought about it myself. I’m going to at least report this to the places that takes care of reports and such. I have no idea … She.. The doctor is just a shithead.
crustified-again said: Sounds like your mental health professional person is cissexist and ableist as fuck
itdoesntlooklikeaman said: That is fucking disgusting. psych reports can be so fucking offensive under the guise of fucking “analysis” when really it’s the personal prejudice of the pdoc. fuck them, they’re fucking wrong.
- *nods* I know. There were 3 people in this evaluation. The doctor, a psychologist and a curator…
Anonymous asked: HOW IS IT CULTURAL APPROPRIATION TO HAVE DREADS I DONT UNDERSTAND
ME NEITHER IT’S JUST HAIR
Anonymous asked: I am born a straight man, and I don't even "act like a man". Why the hell should that be a thing at all to you? I mean, from what I see, you want to become a man in total, right? Why don't they let you? You should be able to be anything you want!
Anonymous asked: Why do you have dreadlocks? That's cultural appropriation.
Because I want to, and I do not care about cultrual appropriation or what others think of my hairstyle or otherwise.
I’ve read it now.
My evaluation written down in 27 pages.
Page 26 broke me completely.
It basically tells me that I am not trans enough.
Apparently I’m not trans enough because I don’t seem to fit in either genders (male or female). Because I am rather content with my genitals as they are (and would transition further), I am not trans enough.
This doctor has had it in for me the whole time..
She has had it in her mind that I am doing this as a modification. Which she asked in the beginning. I answered in a horrified manner and explained on how different levels body modification as an interest and how I see my body.
(One thing I have found obsurd. In the “psychological status” where she was supposed to only write how I was doing and feeling …
SHE WROTE HOW I WAS DRESSED AND HOW I LOOKED.
On and on. Hair, piercings, clothes. A lot of times. Why the fuck?)
I started to hyperventilate when I read the sentence. That fucking sentence …
I have been reading the whole evaluation to my boyfriend over the phone.
This is what it says, translated: “Does not have a wish to pass as a man, only to do a few modifications. Is not thought to be permanentally dissatisfied with (their) gender.” … “Is not expressing a clinically significant affliction.”
I have no words besides this is going to be a fucking fight.
They are constantly putting me down, saying that I am more androgynous than male. When it says directly that I am feeling more as a guy, never as the other, and never had a doubt about who I want to be.
I’m gonna have a drink. And try not to break down about their “care conference” they had before the last meeting that broke me further…
I am not. I have 27 pages of my chart in my bag. I skimmed through it and it said on one page that because of my Aspergers it was hard for me to understand and interact in social situations and it would be hard for me to “act like a man”. I am tying my vest not to get emotional in the liquor store but seriously I need … I know I’m gonna break down anyway … This is all too much. Fuck, can I even read this horribleness? Taking deep breaths…